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OMG!! i cant believe giants lost.. sucks... hMm.. today went dt.. bought shirt.. watched sweet home alabama... i liked it.. just because it was a happy sweet ass movie.. but other than that.. it was kinda bad and too predictable.. but i love it! but we missed alot of it so dun really get the movie... hmm for what i sed yesterday.. i sorta dun mean it... cuz i think i made people feel bad.. but well.. no matter what i'ma feel alone.. even tho i kno people are there for me.. iono.. it doesnt make sense... but yea... life is way to full of surprises... heh kinda scared... but i guess thats what makes life exciting... i realize that i made everything seem hekka dramatic.. but whats even weirder to me.. is just that henry is feeling like shit too.. i really want to talk to him... but ehhhh... xuongs never around anymore.. ahhh... eliza.. its really not ur fault.. i just feel weird letting everything out... i guess even when i am one of the people that say.. its better to talk about it.. i still cant do it myself... cuz i feel hekka stupid.. but i'm getting there... hMm... i dun get how this started... i just feel hekka bad for henry... gosh.. im really starting to regret the sibling rivalry... heh.. he doesnt know it.. but i dun wanna move the comp outta his room.. cuz if i do.. i'll never be around him.. and hes gonna go off to college in like two years... ahhh i dont want to be alone... hmm maybe this has more to do with henry than anything else... and damn xuongs profile... he feels reallly alone too... i think it says that no one understands and no one cuts him any slack... and i'ma sucka for family... dang.. the solution is right there... talk to my family... well not my parents.. but henry and xuong... *sigh* its not as easy as it sounds tho... think of somethin ppl.. id preciate anything... and to eliza again.. dun trip.. i kno ur there for me.. and i kno coleos there too.. hekka people are there for me.. and i really appreciate it.. but i realize that i'ma feel this way for a while.. i think its the age... wait maybe not... its just the timing and everything.. cuz it cant be the age.. my brothers are goin thru smiliar things... you know what would be nice.. if we all cried together.. so we can let it all out... together... heh surprised that my brothers cry? well i guess we are all quite emotional...i dont wanna grow up.. i just thought of it right now.. cuz if i get older.. i'm not gonna spend as much time wit my brother... but no matter what.. i'll still be their little sister... heh... i like how that sounds... henry sed that to me one time...heh thinkin about it is makin me smile.. but tearing.. heh... tears of joy?... hehe i love my brothers... dun wanna let go... hmmm writing in here made me realize alot... thats good... eliza.. i think i'ma give up on him.. even if i never tried... gary... u left me man... and i wanted to talk too... grrr... ur the only one who knows what i mean.. i need a shrink or somethin shiet..