i feel like shit today.. isn't that just wonderful? I am so dermined in school, but at the same time, my motivation is squashed by my depression, if thats what people like to call it. It also pisses me off that Jonathan Louie keeps telling me that I am suicidal and I have too many problems. Well you know what? So what if I have problems? Just don't ask me about it because I do not wish to talk to you about it. Stop talking about it to me as if it's some kind of joke. I honestly take this stuff seriously. By you saying those things to me, I think even more about the things I say in here that make me seem that depressed. I am not always like this. I am a fucking happy ass person most of the time. But as you can see I am not happy now. I am a fucking pissy bitch at the moment. I am under too much stress.. for real. And I guess I put it upon myself, but oh well. It's too hard to try to change things now.