I don't see the point in anything right now. Tracy, believe me, I don't drown in the negatives, but when I'm down, something causes me to think about everything. Happy memories come to mind every once in a while, but then again negatives pop up even more. I think about it all.. I think about all those burdens I've surpassed and how I gained wisdom from it all. I think to myself, this happened for a reason, and I gained something from it so I guess it was worth it. and Now.. When everything starts to pile up. Friends, bullshit, bullshit, school, and more bullshit, I think about why I should even go through all of this shit. It's so easy just to end all of this. Just like that.. But for some reason, the thought of death never occured to me until now. And yet I still don't see the point in dying either. I guess part of the reason is because I'm a pussy and I wouldn't want to die. Another is that dying will cause pain for other people, causing them to be just as unhappy as I am. So what do I do when I've reached this thought?.. Nothing. What else can you do? I'd pray but I have nothing to pray to. So right now, all I can do is sit here, while the world passes me by because I KNOW that I am a good person and that eventually, I will find true love and happiness. But until that day, I will be here waiting. I'm not sure what I'm waiting for, but when it comes to me, I will know that I've been waiting for it all my life.