Tracy's blog...

"is it really that unusual that i find no solace in much of anything anymore? cause i don't. and no i'm not bitter. i accept everything. i don't really care. i don't mind. it doesn't bother me. i don't want to like anyone? great. fine. whatever. it doesn't bother me. i don't want to whine and be a bitch about my issues? fine. that's just terrific. i don't care. i don't need to explain myself.

and then i think. well isn't this whining? maybe in some aspects. but not entirely. more like a self evaluation. explanation. and vent. and no i'm not some bitter and crushed person. just one thats angry at the whole damn world. i just don't like to be vulnerable. dependent. i can take care of myself and i'm perfectly fine with that."

that's the fucking damn truth. exactly how i am feeling.. I don't need to explain myself to anyone.. if i chose to then great. if i feel like you won't understand.. then maybe that's why i haven't said anythin to you? yes that's the answer.. isnt it? and i am fuckin angry at the whole damn world.. if you guys that read this don't realize that.. cuz i've said it so many times. then it's bullshit. you're just stupid and what's the point of you even reading this?