Hm. Well yesterday night was just terrible for me. I was in the worst mood in the world.. The feeling where you are crushed because the person you like likes someone else. It's not anything new for me, but hearing it in this form was exactly like a kick in the stomach. I was uber hungry but I didn't want to eat. I'm still on that no junk food diet thing. Lets see how long I'll last on that huh. I went to sleep listening to Jay Chow. His music really helps me when I'm trying to find some way to escape from how I'm feeling. I came to realize that I can't escape from anything. When the music turns off, I am back to the way I was feeling before. Sometimes even worst, because I know that I got no where in the amount of time I had to think about how things are going. It kind of feels like things are falling apart on me again. But I feel no need to inform any particular person about the way I'm feeling. I don't want anything like I'm sorry you're feeling this way and I'm sorry I didn't notice earlier or that I'm sorry I can't really help you. I'm just not good with this stuff. Alone time I what I feel like I need at the moment. Laying in bed listening to my cd player. Walking around listening to my cd player and thinking. That is the best cure I can think of right now. There are also little things I am irritated with right now. I hate damn excuses.. Zero tolerance.. I hate the fact that I know that I'm so easily irritated but I feel like it's too hard to control sometimes..