I've come to realize that who I am, or became isn't who I want to be. I want to be that girl that all parents like, not because she's uber smart or nice, but just because she's a kool person. The girl that is friends with everyone. That girl that is lady- like when necessary, but tom-boyish once in a while. In my eyes, I am the girl who is pretty nice and all, but has a hot temper and pretty scary. I don't really care what people think of me.. Or maybe I do. I also really hate it when people always say I analyze things too deeply. FUCK YOU. I don't care what you say about that, because at least I care about things. You. Well you just don't think about things for longer than 5 seconds so how could you even analyze things. Think about things once in a while. Critical thinking won't kill you. I've kind of realized the reason why people say I over analyze things... It's because YOU just don't think about important things like me. You are overly absorbed in yourself to even care about anything else around you. I'm sorry if I might use some "big" words.. even though i don't think they are big.. But sometimes, you just get into those modes where you use those less common words. My friends make fun of me.. or they did because I had a rather ineteresting vocabulary in the beginning of middle school compared to them. Now.. I've sunk to nothing. I am very ashamed. I just want to find a group of people, who are like me.. but aren't like me at all.. so I won't feel so alone anymore..