I think and rethink how I can put my current feelings into words... and I just don't know how to say it so that anyone else will understand. I guess you can say that I'm sick and tired of school, not just the learning part, but the entire process. Every aspect of it just pisses me off.. I go to school before I even have to be there, then I have to go to a class where my teacher counts down from 5 when we don't know an answer then gives us a pop quiz. Then I have Chinese class where I actually suck at writing characters because they are freaking critical of how you write. I'm SICK of this shit. I feel like I'm gonna faint when I'm in gym these days and if I tell my teacher, he's just gonna think I'm lying. Fucker. Then I have English class where I'm just tired of what we're doing. And I always have a damn headache throughout the class because I just came back from gym. Modern World is starting to piss me off too because I have to cram in the homework time. All I want to do when I get home is sleep, watch tv, and eat. But since I did that today, I'm screwed. Ortho 2m and all my damn homework. I don't even know why I can't handle all this. It's not that hard.. See as usual, I get all off topic. I just feel like I have no motivation to go to school. I don't need anyone that I met.. I don't need them at all. All I need is my music, my old friends, and the tv. I'm probably sounding arrogant or cocky about this.. but well, I went from all these great friends and talking to everyone in my class in 8th grade to this loner that likes to raise their hand. It's like I lost all my friendlyness? It's just hard I guess.. to go from one environment to another. maybe everything would be better if I just stayed home for a day.. rest and get all happy again. But guess what? That's never going to happen. Oh my it's 10 I should go start my damn homework. woohoo