today was one of those days.. that i wish could happen more often. Just chillin with my friend connie.. hanging out.. not thinkin about anythin.. doin hw at the same time.. just straight up bonding... i guess. it was real nice. It's the simple things in my life that bring me happiness. And i hate the fact that the simple things are hard to gain.. it's such an oxymoron but it's true. little things can make me happy, but the little things now seem really out of reach.

My persective on life for now...
Okay, so I don't really think there is a reason why I was put on this Earth. There isn't really a logical reason to me. So here's what I think... Everyone has a reason to live. When someone asks you to think about it, you will probably give some half shit answer.. because it's really hard to put your finger on something like that. So when you say you don't have a reason to live, it's just that you don't know it yet.. well unless you go and die... but if you're like me, you probably didn't find out yet.. so I guess what I'm trying to say is just don't lose hope. You will find a reason to live someday. And when you find it, you probably won't even think about it since you are already so happy. Does that make sense?... When you find it, you won't know it. But somewhere in your mind, you will know that whatever it is, is the reason why you want to live on. It might be a person, it might be a passion that you have.. it can really be anything. I guess I should read this and listen to what i'm telling you guys huh?.... well i hope you all the best.. and iono what's gotten into me. i just love life for today at least