I'm just browsing through my brother's friend, brian's blog. He is such an intellectual guy. seriously. go to his blog... and he just inspired me to blog....
I've pondered the reasons for my sadness again and again. I've come to realize that it's because of a guy. Or maybe more than one guy. I've always been the person who would laugh at the girls who cry over guys, or the girls who thinks guys are everything. I'm not saying I think guys are everything, but I've found myself crying over a combination of family problems and guy problems. I think back to it and I feel stupid. That one quote.. " No man is worth your tears, and the one who is will never make you cry. " *sigh* Sometimes, it's just hard to control what your hormones make you do. I honestly think that it's my hormones that got me started on this guy thing. And I eventually grew into the whole liking him idea. Everything about him adds up to make me like him. Have you ever thought.. What attracted me to him in the first place? Maybe his looks? I'm not sure for me. I think he's pretty cute but I met him through a friend. We started talking online a little. He liked my friend. I guess I fell in like with him around that time. It took a while for the feelings to build though. I didn't really want to admit it. Over a course of a two month summer, I grew very very close to him. I trusted him hekka quick and vice versa. My feelings for him grew as school started to approach. I started to become weaker emotionally.. I'm not exactly sure why, but it's still the case. I started to depend on him for emotional support. Some come on people.. why wouldn't you fall in like with someone like him? And for a while, I tried to deny that I still liked him to my friends. A few saw through it. Bless them for making me admit it. I liked a few people at the same time, but in the end, it was him again. And now, I don't know what to do. I have no chance, but I can't stop liking him. It's been almost 10 months I swear.
I wouldn't say that he is my reason of sadness. He cheers me up all the time. And I love him to death cuz he's my friend. But I feel stupid. Why do I do this to myself? I wouldn't say I'm in love, but I haven't liked someone this long so seriously for a long time.. or maybe even ever. Because elementary long-time crushes hardly count. What does this mean. Girls, you gotta admit, there is one guy that you've always had your eye on and you always fall back liking him after liking other guys. What do you do about it? I want to know. Damn these hormones. Teenage years are hellish. well what i'm trying to say is..
Don't think you're stupid for crying over a guy. Everyone goes through it. I was stupid and ignorant before that because some people are really serious about the person they like. And I realize that the reason for my sadness is that.. I can't be happy for the person.. I don't like the way things are going.. because yea things arent going my way.. so of course I'm not happy? None of this made sense.. but I wanted to say something.. heh heh
I've pondered the reasons for my sadness again and again. I've come to realize that it's because of a guy. Or maybe more than one guy. I've always been the person who would laugh at the girls who cry over guys, or the girls who thinks guys are everything. I'm not saying I think guys are everything, but I've found myself crying over a combination of family problems and guy problems. I think back to it and I feel stupid. That one quote.. " No man is worth your tears, and the one who is will never make you cry. " *sigh* Sometimes, it's just hard to control what your hormones make you do. I honestly think that it's my hormones that got me started on this guy thing. And I eventually grew into the whole liking him idea. Everything about him adds up to make me like him. Have you ever thought.. What attracted me to him in the first place? Maybe his looks? I'm not sure for me. I think he's pretty cute but I met him through a friend. We started talking online a little. He liked my friend. I guess I fell in like with him around that time. It took a while for the feelings to build though. I didn't really want to admit it. Over a course of a two month summer, I grew very very close to him. I trusted him hekka quick and vice versa. My feelings for him grew as school started to approach. I started to become weaker emotionally.. I'm not exactly sure why, but it's still the case. I started to depend on him for emotional support. Some come on people.. why wouldn't you fall in like with someone like him? And for a while, I tried to deny that I still liked him to my friends. A few saw through it. Bless them for making me admit it. I liked a few people at the same time, but in the end, it was him again. And now, I don't know what to do. I have no chance, but I can't stop liking him. It's been almost 10 months I swear.
I wouldn't say that he is my reason of sadness. He cheers me up all the time. And I love him to death cuz he's my friend. But I feel stupid. Why do I do this to myself? I wouldn't say I'm in love, but I haven't liked someone this long so seriously for a long time.. or maybe even ever. Because elementary long-time crushes hardly count. What does this mean. Girls, you gotta admit, there is one guy that you've always had your eye on and you always fall back liking him after liking other guys. What do you do about it? I want to know. Damn these hormones. Teenage years are hellish. well what i'm trying to say is..
Don't think you're stupid for crying over a guy. Everyone goes through it. I was stupid and ignorant before that because some people are really serious about the person they like. And I realize that the reason for my sadness is that.. I can't be happy for the person.. I don't like the way things are going.. because yea things arent going my way.. so of course I'm not happy? None of this made sense.. but I wanted to say something.. heh heh
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