Nostaligia attack.

School is just so fucking shitty. There isn't anything to make it better at the moment, except for shitloads of homework.. but oh wait, homework just adds on to the unhappiness/stress levels. When we were at the Lowell vs. Wash games, sure it was fun sitting with Lowell and cheering, but I kept having a paranoid feeling like someone is going to judge me.. Not like they're gonna say it, but I'm scared of what they say in their heads. And when we were on the Wash side sitting with Shannon and them people, I felt totally at home. Even though I was cheering for Lowell, I felt more in place than I ever did with Lowell people. It just goes to show you that I haven't settled in one bit at Lowell..

When I'm bored, and I'm browsing through all these xangas and shit from the people at Lowell.. I read that they're always hanging out with the friends they met at Lowell. I have NEVER even talked to someone outside of school about something other than school. And in a way, it makes me sad.. or maybe that's not quite the word.. it makes me feel alone at that school. It really just feels like shit when you have no one in your class to help you with anything because you have no friends there. I just kinda wish that I was at wash or something.. Less stress, higher grades, half days every wednesday.. What a life. And I life so fucking close! Damn.

It seems like all I want to do these days is go stab something.. I want to attack someone just so I can feel better. Maybe I need to take on some artistic hobby to lift up all my stress? I've always wanted to paint on a canvas and stuff like that. Too bad it's some expensive shit!

All I want is to go back to Presidio.. maybe? The end of the year was such a great time.. Relaxing our way through 8th grade, and knowing everyone around you.. or most of the people around you.. Either way, I still had my homeys. And I love them to death even though they went through so much stupid ass drama.


I x3 you guys