Happy Birthday ANURAT and KRISTIE. :D :D Freakin old hags.. dang

Okay, so instead of looking too far into the future, I've decided to ponder what my life will be like by the end of this school year. And when you think about it, with someone like myself who does not know what she wants later in life, how can I even think about 5 years from now, when I can't even imagine how I will be like in about 4 months. One of the worse parts of being a live is waiting and worrying about what will become of yourself in the near or far future. Some people seem to think that us humans will eventually possess the ability to predict the future and read minds later on, but I don't believe it. Predicting the future is absolutely impossible because you are your own destiny, in a sense, and what you are IS what was destinied to happen. And if our lives are destined to be a certain way, why do I even worry about life? I know it's unnesscessary to worry endlessly about school, but it's like I'm being pulled in half. The part of me that believes that I'm already destined to something later in life is the same part that keeps me online even when I have loads of homework, and the other part of me is that part which believes that I need to worry about stuff now in order to get anywhere. But in the end.. all of this stuff I'm saying and all the things I'm worrying about were apart of the "life's plan" that I was destinied to fulfill.