Sometimes, don't you just wish that you were all little again? And doesn't it just seem so ironic since you always wanted to grow up when you were younger, but now that you're older, you just want to be simple minded and naive again. It just seems like everyday, I wake up and do the same exact thing, with slight variations of course. It goes Wakes up > bathroom > school > class > home/bus ride > eat & nap > wake up > hw > sleep. That is literally the same schedule I have and the variations are almost nada, except maybe I need to do homework during school or whatever. I really hate that feeling.. where you feel like something is missing, you know? And maybe I'm totally wrong, but if things were like my childhood again, I would be much happier. The main reason of course is that family was so awesome back then.. I really don't know if it's the same with everyone's families, but my family drifted a lot since say.. 4 years ago? Is it because we're growing up and living our own lives? Because even if we are growing up, shouldn't we all grow up together? Or at least around each other? Seriously though, I want my future family to be tight like hell. That'd probably be the greatest thing in the world. And I swear now, that I will NEVER let money be the reason for an argument. Well even if I do swear, I might not be able to keep my word.. which really sucks, but I've been feeling like this since 5th grade. Money truely is the root of all evil, and the first thing affected is people.

And you know how at the end of the year, you look back and think, "damn that year passed by fast"? I just wish that this year would be finished already. School feels like it takes too damn long lately and I just want to be left alone and not have to talk to people around me. It's hella hypocritical how my previous entry was about meeting someone, and now I'm saying that I want to be left alone. Yeah, it doesn't make much sense, but I mood swing alot. In addition to my mood swings, there is also the factor that maybe I just want to meet someone I can relate to and the people who are around me just don't fit that category. Damn, imagine how long it's going to take me to find the person I'm going to marry. At the rate of my pickyness and luck, I won't be able to have four kids! haha. -___- More homework.

____ Also, some messages to my friends
+ Marr- you're right, it's probably perfectly normal and I shouldn't worry about it too much. But everytime we have a lot of time off of school, I just THINK. haha. So I guess no school would kill me eh?
+ Lona- Thank you. that explains everything and you know what I'm saying even if it's not written.
+ Yolee- I think it's so super cool that I met you online and like.. DAMN YOU JUST FUCKING ROCK :D And just thank you for reading. It's nice to know that someone I've never met actually cares. Haha. It's people like you who make the world a better place.

__Betty!!!
Do you remember our cousin Linda? Well.. she had a baby girl about a month ago! :D :D We're like aunties!! WOOHOO! Once I get the pictures, I'll show em to ya! And seriously, you gotta come visit us sometime, I need FAMILY in my life!!