hey lone, guess what. cj somehow convinced me that i like amos. o_O;; ehhhhhhh. it just feels like a gary cover up.. but then again i might be trying to convince myself i still like gary.. jeeze HELP MEeeeee

god.. you have no idea how much i feel like a charity case with gary. i usually dont ask him to go places with me.. but like when i do.. its usually because i need someone to go with. and to him.. its like he's always turning me down. i know i really want to see him and thats why i ask.. but its either i want to go with him or im going to go alone. i wish I could say that to him so i dont feel like such a loser. but man i want to see him. i want to talk to him and whatever like before. its not going to be the same ever.. so why do i even bother sulking in the past.