When it comes down to it..

When you think about it, school really isn't as important as say.. your family, your friends, and most definitely your health. What is the most important thing in your life?

My answer would have to be family. So maybe you'll understand how much it tears me apart everyday when I know in the back of my mind that things are slowly changing for the worse. I cannot concentrate on anything anymore. I can't focus my attention on any assignment without hearing the yelling in my head, or hearing arguments from the other side of my door. I used to be able to block out those unhappy thoughts with loud music. But can you believe that I can still hear the yelling over the music? I can't escape it... whether it's actually happening, or if I'm just recalling situations from the past.

I want it to go away. I'm tired of it tricking me by going away for a few weeks, then coming back when I am at my weakest point.