I feel cold, and "out of it." It's too hard to concentrate on anything, so I kind of just sit here staring at the wall. My mouth hurts.. or more like aches.

I'm listening to my cd player so I can block out everything else around me. I like this feeling of solitude.. but then again, it's going to drive me crazy.

I need a hug. -_-

edit 3:45 am
I woke up from sleeping just now, and I feel really.. Happy. The thought that I'm just sitting here while the majority rest of San Francisco is asleep makes me feel FREEEee. I was suprised I'd wake up to be honest. Har. From this girl Jenny's Xanga, I downloaded one of the new fly to the sky songs from their new album. I've been addicted to the song ever since. I really am in love with their voices. I have two FTTS cds, and I haven't been disappointed by any of their songs yet. They motivate me to learn Korean.

I don't understand this euphoric feeling at the moment, but I also don't understand why I am questioning it. Like friendships and other realtionships, too much doubt will lead to the inevitable end of everything. And so, as I type these pathetic sentences, the peppyness is being slowly drained from my body.

oh also
Happy Birthday
Wayne Mak 11/18/04
although he'll never ever read this, I'd like to keep in my records that I knew a Wayne Mak once upon a time. Plus, he's a real youngen man! Turning 15. SHIT! I I'm more than half a year older that than guy.