I just need to blog
As the night progressed, I began to gain more insight as to why that person's comment affected me so much. I'm obviously not working hard enough and getting everything I possibly can out of these classes. This person's words triggered something in my brain causing me to feel incredibly insecure. I'm such a resentful and spiteful person sometimes and I'm not sure how these feelings manifest.
I'm getting pretty scared about my trip. That, grouped with PMS, made me irritable these past few days. I'm going to learn how to control my emotions better this upcoming school year. We'll see how it goessssssss
The Jason Mraz CD I coerced Andrew into paying for is wonderful. Mr. A-z definitely exceeded my expectations times a million. Jason Mraz's voice has developed so much more since his debut album! It's fortunate that I have a friend like Andrew. I can listen to Jason Mraz's soothing voice on the 14 hour plan ride to Seoul. Andrew, you rock. Fashofasho.
Leslie is back from China! muhahahaah. I really missed talking to him for some reason, yet I didn't miss a lot of other people while they were gone. Maybe it's because he was gone for a long time? Whatever, I'm just glad he came back before I left. Aaron left for Korea. I hope he gets me some Wonbin stuff. Guess what Aaron asked me to get him from China.. A towel with a beautiful photograph imprinted on it. I'm not sure if I can fulfill his request, but I shall try.
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addendum 2:10 am
Normally around this hour, I'm either on AIM chatting with my fellow insomniacs or on firefox browsing through random xangas/journals. Two minutes ago, I came across a fellow Lowellite's emo-ass xanga. She had on her xanga a wish list for her birthday which consisted of half a dozen "items" she believed no one could give to her. She's definitely right since everything on that list was intangible. However, the manner by which she presented the list screamed "I'M SO EMO I WANT YOU TO FEEL BAD FOR ME NOW!" Then I realized how emo I must seem through this blog, and all my judgments about her faded away.
This thing is my form of venting, and I don't have any right to criticize another person's journal.. that is unless they're asking for "eprops" or something.
I feel like I need to blog as much as possible before I leave. wth? -_-
Oh, here’s my open offer: if you want something from China, tell me now. If you request something in particular, I'll try to look for it, but I won't make any promises. However, if you want me to just get you "something," then I don't think I can do that. Two weeks isn't nearly enough time to shop for people on a list. If I get you something, then you're obviously special. Oh! To the people that already went to China this summer: your asses aren't getting anything!
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addendum part 2: 4:47 am
I'm not sure why, but it's surprising to me that I'm still such an insomniac. During the school year I have a legitamate reason for staying up until the wee hours of the morning-- finishing homework and studying hard. During the summer, however, I sometimes have too much time on my hands, yet I still chose to sit here staring mindlessly at a screen rather than catch up on countless hours of sleep lost during the school year. That sentence was long, and because of SAT class, I have this really strong urge to clarify that sentence while also making it more concise. Lucky for you readers, it is late, and I don't want to backspace that much or touch my mouse, so I'll just leave that incredibly verbose sentence for you guys to comprehend.
Right now, I'm wondering how I'll ever wake up on time for my SAT class at 2:30 pm. I also wonder if I can memorize another 125 words by tomorrow afternoon. I actually began the studying process a day earlier than usual. But, I went online and Sam connected me to his webcam and I wasted an hour talking to him and a few other people on AIM. Afterwards, I chatted for another few hours. It's such a waste of my time since I can't even remember any of the conversations I had.
Andrew got me this really sick ass pencil from China. Okay, he didn't get it especially for me, but I was happy to receive such a sturdy pencil anyway. It writes hella smoothly. Too bad the lead is kind of weak. I'll add my wonderful costco lead as soon as I run out of this chinese lead.
This is the longest entry I've posted in a long time.
I'm getting pretty scared about my trip. That, grouped with PMS, made me irritable these past few days. I'm going to learn how to control my emotions better this upcoming school year. We'll see how it goessssssss
The Jason Mraz CD I coerced Andrew into paying for is wonderful. Mr. A-z definitely exceeded my expectations times a million. Jason Mraz's voice has developed so much more since his debut album! It's fortunate that I have a friend like Andrew. I can listen to Jason Mraz's soothing voice on the 14 hour plan ride to Seoul. Andrew, you rock. Fashofasho.
Leslie is back from China! muhahahaah. I really missed talking to him for some reason, yet I didn't miss a lot of other people while they were gone. Maybe it's because he was gone for a long time? Whatever, I'm just glad he came back before I left. Aaron left for Korea. I hope he gets me some Wonbin stuff. Guess what Aaron asked me to get him from China.. A towel with a beautiful photograph imprinted on it. I'm not sure if I can fulfill his request, but I shall try.
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addendum 2:10 am
Normally around this hour, I'm either on AIM chatting with my fellow insomniacs or on firefox browsing through random xangas/journals. Two minutes ago, I came across a fellow Lowellite's emo-ass xanga. She had on her xanga a wish list for her birthday which consisted of half a dozen "items" she believed no one could give to her. She's definitely right since everything on that list was intangible. However, the manner by which she presented the list screamed "I'M SO EMO I WANT YOU TO FEEL BAD FOR ME NOW!" Then I realized how emo I must seem through this blog, and all my judgments about her faded away.
This thing is my form of venting, and I don't have any right to criticize another person's journal.. that is unless they're asking for "eprops" or something.
I feel like I need to blog as much as possible before I leave. wth? -_-
Oh, here’s my open offer: if you want something from China, tell me now. If you request something in particular, I'll try to look for it, but I won't make any promises. However, if you want me to just get you "something," then I don't think I can do that. Two weeks isn't nearly enough time to shop for people on a list. If I get you something, then you're obviously special. Oh! To the people that already went to China this summer: your asses aren't getting anything!
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addendum part 2: 4:47 am
I'm not sure why, but it's surprising to me that I'm still such an insomniac. During the school year I have a legitamate reason for staying up until the wee hours of the morning-- finishing homework and studying hard. During the summer, however, I sometimes have too much time on my hands, yet I still chose to sit here staring mindlessly at a screen rather than catch up on countless hours of sleep lost during the school year. That sentence was long, and because of SAT class, I have this really strong urge to clarify that sentence while also making it more concise. Lucky for you readers, it is late, and I don't want to backspace that much or touch my mouse, so I'll just leave that incredibly verbose sentence for you guys to comprehend.
Right now, I'm wondering how I'll ever wake up on time for my SAT class at 2:30 pm. I also wonder if I can memorize another 125 words by tomorrow afternoon. I actually began the studying process a day earlier than usual. But, I went online and Sam connected me to his webcam and I wasted an hour talking to him and a few other people on AIM. Afterwards, I chatted for another few hours. It's such a waste of my time since I can't even remember any of the conversations I had.
Andrew got me this really sick ass pencil from China. Okay, he didn't get it especially for me, but I was happy to receive such a sturdy pencil anyway. It writes hella smoothly. Too bad the lead is kind of weak. I'll add my wonderful costco lead as soon as I run out of this chinese lead.
This is the longest entry I've posted in a long time.
2 Comments:
its not chinese lead....its stock pentel lead, the ones i always use. i actually like this lead better because it write so smoothly. well anyways, enjoy :P
btw, its from hong kong, and i did get them especially for you.....sheesh
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