For some reason, I couldn't get myself to wake up to study for Physics or Precalc. There goes my A in both classes..

I don't know what's going on with me, but I'm emotionally not ready to face other people at school today. There's nothing visibly or obviously wrong with me. I just did not care enough to wake up. I don't even feel well rested.

Shit I've just had enough of constantly killing myself over school. Just after typing that sentence, I felt as though a million voices swept over me telling me not to give up or that they had faith in me. Yet I still interpret that as I can't fail because they will be disappointed. I'm setting up an illusion to trap myself.. o_O;

I must be the shitty weather. I tired, yet I slept sporadically from 4:30 pm to now. DIE.

I'm so envious of people who can constantly hold it together and constantly study for tests. Am I extrinsically motivated?