Man. Call me emo girl now because I hella don't feel like doing jack shit at this very moment.
I'm an internalized attributer, but at the same time, I put a lot of the blame on the situation, too. For example, Dennis's dad had to work today, so I didn't get a ride home from Chinese School. I always hate not getting rides home on Saturdays because I have the option of going to buy food before going home, and that always leads to plenty of time wasted. This weekend was no different. I bought Spicy Fries from Java and headed home surprisingly faster than usual and told myself that I would hop over to the library when it opened. Well, as usual, I stayed home and slept. My head still hurts from the bus ride home, and I blame Dennis's dad completely. The fact that he had to work today isn't to blame, but it's the fact that I never know if I can get a ride in advance that throws my schedule off. Because it's nearly 5 pm and I should have already finished my psych outline, I'm pissed off at the situation.
On the other hand, I'm the one who lacked self control. I'm the one that allowed myself to fall asleep and I'm the one that refused to wake up when my mom came into my room three hours ago. It may be that the fact that I had to take the bus home that triggered the chain of events, but I'm ultimately responsible for the rest of my actions. So to cut it short, it's all my fault and that makes me even less motivated.
The percentage of people at Lowell that get 5's on APUSH = 9.2% The odds are low. That made me tear because I'm feeling ridiculously irrational right now.
I'm an internalized attributer, but at the same time, I put a lot of the blame on the situation, too. For example, Dennis's dad had to work today, so I didn't get a ride home from Chinese School. I always hate not getting rides home on Saturdays because I have the option of going to buy food before going home, and that always leads to plenty of time wasted. This weekend was no different. I bought Spicy Fries from Java and headed home surprisingly faster than usual and told myself that I would hop over to the library when it opened. Well, as usual, I stayed home and slept. My head still hurts from the bus ride home, and I blame Dennis's dad completely. The fact that he had to work today isn't to blame, but it's the fact that I never know if I can get a ride in advance that throws my schedule off. Because it's nearly 5 pm and I should have already finished my psych outline, I'm pissed off at the situation.
On the other hand, I'm the one who lacked self control. I'm the one that allowed myself to fall asleep and I'm the one that refused to wake up when my mom came into my room three hours ago. It may be that the fact that I had to take the bus home that triggered the chain of events, but I'm ultimately responsible for the rest of my actions. So to cut it short, it's all my fault and that makes me even less motivated.
The percentage of people at Lowell that get 5's on APUSH = 9.2% The odds are low. That made me tear because I'm feeling ridiculously irrational right now.
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