haha i feel like i'm back in high school. i seriously thought that after a certain age, i would get over that head over heels feeling as well as the super obsessive feelings towards a guy. if anything, i think i'm digressing in terms of maturity. doing shit that i normally wouldn't do, caring way too much, thinking too much, and of course putting his needs before my own priorities.

this would all be fine if i had the balls to reveal my feelings and get rejected and move on, but i don't have the courage to do that at all.

instead, i'll just keep going at this rate and torturing myself forever. ahhhhhhhhhh

when does this get easier?!?!

i really need to focus on school though. need to stop need to stop!

i got a french press though.... so i'm pretty excited about that :) :) i love coffee. it's my drug of choice for sure.