I am in a perpetual state of...... being a zombie. All of these feelings I've been having in the last three weeks or so are so foreign to me. I've told my friends many times that I don't feel human, but I can't think of a better way to explain it to them. I guess what I mean is that because I've never experienced these feelings, I didn't know it was humanly possible to feel this way; therefore, I don't feel human because I still don't believe that humans normally have the capacity to feel what I feel right now.

Driving is definitely dangerous for me when I am alone because my mind wanders away a lot. My mind is operating through associations to memories these days, so everything reminds me of G. I wonder when this emotional pain stops manifesting itself physically. I am very exhausted these days and I don't want to be this way anymore.

Yesterday my Managerial Accounting teacher told me that time really does heal everything. I trust her for some reason. So I'm waiting on you, time.