The Last Text from G

(Picture of me and G at CUBS Final Banquet, Fall 2008)

"Remember this? It was a time when I found everything I wanted in you. But now I've lost myself. My innocence, my heart. I've damned myself with the decisions that I made. I'm not the person that I want to be nor the boy you once loved, and certainly not happy. I just desperately hold on to the dreams I dreamed with you, always so hopeful and happy about the future, no matter how dark it was. Istanbul, Nepal, MoMo growing up, these things will always hold me to you. In my darkness I just think of you because you lift me up. I am a monster now, and you should cut me out of your life. I will only bring you pain and hurt. I love you more than you know, and I will for a long time. It was my selfishness that killed us. I hope when I drown in my own darkness, I will be reborn and can still find my way back into your arms. Even if it's not on this earth. You are the happiest I've ever been, and a part of me dies now. Walk away, my love."