Okay sweet blog, I must not neglect you any longer. I was too caught up in spring break to post anything that i even cared about. Although I have no time now, I feel that I should sacrafice some sleep to write in you. haha

Spring break was the greatest; seeing all my friends and having fun was what I really needed to lift my spirits. However, after having that little taste of Spring Break, I went back to school all lazy and shit. I really don't want to be at school and I especially hate being around certain people. Their personalities clash too much with mine.. Over the break I felt like I belonged where I was.. I felt happy and I didn't worry about anything because I was back to a place where I am familiar with. Once I got back to school, part of me really was relieved, but theres another part of me (that i try to supress as much as possible) that keeps thinking how much better and happy life would be if I wasn't in the place i am now.

Another thing that bothers the hell out of me is how i realize now that I never appreciated the people and the friends I had made at presidio. Why did i even want to get out of that school so quickly? Because as I look back to my memories, I can honestly say that there were more smiles, laughter, and jokes than there was the drama and ugliness. I miss being in that big ol group of 33 people at lunch, where everyone had food, or would buy food. It was a regular routine, but it was great and so much less stressful than where I am now.

At Lowell, I'm around so many haters. You'd be surprised how many people just talk shit just to talk shit.. i guess the better way to say it is.. they talk shit because they're just shit talkers and they blow everything out of proportion.

Another thing that I finally realized is that my friends really were popular.. hah I never really thought about it that way before, but now that I'm completely unknown at lowell.. I realize that I was never afraid to embarass myself when I was at Presidio because there was a part of me deep down inside that knew no one would want to cross me or my friends. Although I did hang out with a popular bunch, I know I wasn't popular.. but if I wanted to be, or realized that my friends were popular.. I could have been some stupid bitch and become popular by association. hah It's weird how people actually judged me as a bitch because of the people I hung out with. The main thing I do not and will not ever understand is how they think my friends are bitches. Okay so the most popular people would be Shannon, Kristen, Tammie correct? Shannon is one of my oldest friends.. and I've known her for almost 10 years now. Shes like my shoulder to cry on when I need her.. Kristen is an old ass friend too. She has that exterior bitch attitude.. because she really doesn't take shit from people. And I find that completely reasonable because I wouldn't either. Shes really understanding too.. Tammie is hated on.. and I never understood why. She's like.. hella nice and will help you with stuff if you need her.. she'll try to comfort you and she's a funny ass loser too. I don't get how people don't see those things.

At lowell.. Alex hates a lot of people. Jeannie talks shit about everyone and everything with Janelle. Janelle.. silent type probably talks more shit than anyone.. but thats just what i think. iono I'm weird like that...