Apparently to my family, I give them tons more attitude than I used to. You can call it denial.. but damn what the hell gives them the right to say ANYTHING about me when they are not here in my life everyday, or they just dont even give a rats ass. Whatever man. I'm just really pissed off about everything right now. Especially the things that made me all bitter and angry easily now. I really think its the PMS speaking right now, but that really hurt my feelings. I guess they are right that I give them more attitude, but I can't have any more patience for these people anymore. They don't listen to me and they don't care. I swear, don't tell me they really really care, because if they did, then they'd ask why I'm so different all of a sudden. Or maybe they'd pay a bit more attention so I don't have to get angry when I have to repeat myself more than three times.

Again, if they really did care, they might realize that I stayed at my brothers house for almost a week. It was sucky to have the same food everyday, but it was just so much better than being with people who only yelled at me for the things I do "wrong," never hearing a praise for anything I do. I don't even fucking feel bad I missed my moms birthday anymore, because she only gave me a grief about it. I swear, I thought it was the 13 yesterday. I felt so fucking bad, but now I just don't give a rats ass. I never really understood how Connie could say that she'd be fine in life if her mom went back to HK and just left her enough money to get by. I can probably do it. Learn how to cook or something..

I'm not even angry.. or even that angry. It's just silent tears right now.. I must say though, its the worse kind.