Guilt Tripping

There are times when I feel like I need to be mean and stand up for myself, or my word (as in what I say). However, whenever I do that, I feel so crappy and I don't think I can face the person the next day.

So the reason for my absence from the blogging world is that I have taken refuge at my brothers house, sleeping there and everything because I had to finish a project for fricking darosa's modern world class. I must admit that it is a bit scary to sleep in an empty house with wooden floor, but there is something SO nice about no one forcing you to sleep or what not. I go to sleep early there because I'm tired and I know I need to wake myself up the next day. Maybe its like the whole "alone" thing stuck in my head which makes me er.. more responsible for my own well being. I really do love being there though.. I DO get bored occasionally, but man, it feels nice to be alone. I felt at home there, and I don't feel very normal in my own house now.. Oh did I mention that I am able to stay at my brothers house because he is away at Vegas for a business trip, or so he says. Who knows where his ass goes.

I'm really getting tired of school. I wouldn't even want to be at school even if i was doing super well.. But it's not like I'm doing shitty in school right now anyway.. I've been doing my freakin homework. Gosh damn. I hate school so much. And note that this is the first time i hated school because of the school part.. usually, it's the people part of school. GR

But doesn't this look yummy? It's sago I think..