I know what I need to work on to make myself a better person, yet I do nothing to try to change any of it. Does that mean that my lack of trying makes me an even worse person? Well I'm not saying that I'm a horrible mean ass bitch to everyone, but I do think I could be better, as could every one in this world. You know what would be great? If for once, when I do something good, it's not for my own satisfaction or whatever. For example, when you help an old lady carry her like roller cart thing on to the bus because it's too heavy for her, you feel good when all the grown ups beam at you and the lady thanks you right? Well that's selfish right there. If only you did it and were like uh okay.. but in reality I don't think anyone would truly feel that... because we all praise ourselves in our heads, don't even deny it.

The hott weather we've been having is kind of nice.. but it's like DAMNIT.. when I'm sweating like a big fat pigg yo. Lately, I've been talking to this dude name Chui i call him chewy cuz i dont like calling him by his first name kevin. He's like my.. escape from annoying people at my lunch time with pms people. ahh it's just so much of a relief. but i'd bet he'd get annoying soon too. blarh. I hate that I'm just like that.