I don't get how teachers expect us to handle the regular amount of classworkw with AP tests this week. If the stress induced by the prospect of AP testing is already inhibiting all my efforts to concentrate on reading, how the hell am I supposed to study for testS other than the AP?

Mrs. Ong promised to slow it down these next two weeks in Chinese class, but she's threatening us with a pop quiz tomorrow to "encourage" us to study and review the material. WTF. I was really pissed off and outraged. After she said that to the class, she gave us "the rest of the time to study" for tomorrow. Yeah, there was five minutes left of class. Thanks for the generous amount of time. During those five minutes, I just sat there scanning the room to observe my classmates like I usually do since I have no friends in that class. It's actually really sad because I'm one of the "smart ones" in that class, so I totally get hated on by my classmates when I say the correct answers to her questions. It feels worse because I have no one else to turn to chit-chat with after the humiliation.

I sort of just want to cut for the next few days. If Schwarz were done lecturing, I would have probably skipped the whole day tomorrow.

My nose is fucking dripping and nothing is helping me reduce this sinus congestion. My face hurts because I'm so congested. fuck. I can't read because I feel like I'm going to pass out when I look down. This is all so pointless.

My brain can't retain any more information damn it. Fuck. I don't know how I can possibly write FRQs or DBQs on Friday. GOD I can't get over myself and concentrate. It's a fucking cycle because I just get more and more pissed off when I can't do what I know I should be doing.