I find it so hard to please people these days. Do any of you have any idea how much energy it takes for me to NOT scream at people all the time? I have so much.. pent up anger/sadness inside of me that never gets out. And I'm a firm believer that everything comes out in some point or another. All lies, deciets, mysteries. Everything will be uncovered someday. So that just means that I'm waiting for the day when I snapp at every person that annoys me... And after that I shall be left friendless. Well that'd be the worst case scenerio.

I'd be lying if I said that I didn't know what was bothering me.. Or what triggered it. One event.. leads to another and another. It just got me thinking and when I think about Gary.. I just get upset because of all the stupid crap I felt before in 8th grade. And just to let you all know.. I told Gary! And it just feels great to be free. CLOSURE BABY. But back to the point, one thing leads to another. That's like the story behind my shitt ass feelings.

It's kind of getting harder to act like I'm happy or whatever.. Today was pure crap. I just yelled at everyone around me.. for things that didn't even concern them. -_____- I wish I could just stay home. I feel like shittt.