You know what I've realized? I'm insanely good at ignoring obvious signs even if they're right in front me of. I'm excellent at blocking out screaming and pretending not to care. I used to be so damn emotional when it came to matters of the heart. Heart for me, means matters relating to family. Fighting is something I've gotten so used to. But lately something else is happening. My grandma's memory is slowly deteriorating, and as I grow deeper into my teenage years, we constantly bump heads. I've always been one to believe that you should respect your elders, and every time I lose my patience with her, I feel like crap after. My mom wants me to stay home more so that she isn't scared all the time. I was a bit annoyed since I was the one who always had to stay home. What about Henry? My mom said that it was Corinna's last few days in SF, so they were spending time together while they could. Okay, being the good sister that I am, I came home early and stayed with my grandma. I'll have to do that while Henry is gone at college too. Do I have a problem with that now? I guess not. I have to do homework and such anyway, so I might as well just chill at home.

In think I need to get a job during the school year. I can't keep draining my parents money like I do now. I'm grateful for everything, but I just wish I could make my own money so that I don't feel guilty when I use money. I wonder where I can work eh?