I'm not unhappy due to friends or anything of that sort, but school is just majorly bumming me out. I wish so badly to get Merlo for Advanced Algebra, and it turns out that my class is the least filled class, therefore I cannot transfer out of him. However, my super cool Chem teacher says I can transfer into her 13,14,15 Chem class and then after 15, I'm done for the day. What do you think about that? I need some advice yo! But here's how I see it.. Besides the days that I have club, I can go home at 1:40 and sleep! I can sleep yo! And get homework done earlier maybe? Having that kind of schedule would mean that I can get home before 3 o' clock! I can sleep until 6 instead of sleeping AT 6, waking up two hours later, and then having only a few hours to do hw before I need to sleep.
It's 3 in the morning now, and I spent over 4 hours doing Chinese homework with Iris and my mom. I have to finish copying some shit, but I don't feel like it right now. I don't think it's fair that I have Chinese school after having a long week of school. COME ON NOW dude.. I basically wake up 6/7 days before 8 o clock. WTF is that shit? I need sleep, but I'm too stubborn when I'm upset to put sleep as the priority. In the end, my stupidity is of course my own fault, therefore I should be punished for it.
Well maybe it's just because I'm already bummed about school, but I get these nostalgic moments that get me down even more. As I look through the window of the 18 bus passing the beach, I get reminded of the day I went to Sutro Heights with Gary. It was just so damn nice to be there, and be free from all this stress I have right now. And on top of that, I only get to see Gary a few times during the school year. What a piece of shit! Then a motorcycle passes by and I get reminded of Robin, then of work, and then of the kids and everyone. I never thought I would miss dealing with those whiney ass kids, but I would prefer it over going to school with the schedule I have now anyway.
Another thing that pisses me off, which I never noticed in the past, is that Eliza and I never have time for each other during the school year. She's got something going on, or else I'm too pissed off to want to go out in case I accidently make it seem like she pissed me off. Besides that anger/bitter factor, I'm so exhausted by the end of the day that I can't do anything except hw then sleep as soon as I can. I hate that my parents tell me I don't need friends, and I should just sleep. I did that before, it didn't work out for me. I'll sleep if I'm tired, but don't tell me I don't need friends or that I won't need friends in the future. If I don't have friends, how the fuck am I going to get married and all that kind of crap that my parents expect? Why would they say stupid shit like that to me when they know I have a short temper during the school year. I know it's disrespectful, but, stop fucking asking me a question and then not listen to the answer and asking me more than three times total. Even if I speak in Chinese, they don't understand what I'm saying. It's either that, or they don't want to hear what I have to say. Thanks parents. Made me feel guilty for being angry at you guys.
I'm pretty disappointed that Kelley and I won't have that much time to CHILLAX this semester.. I feel like I'll become even more anti-social as the year progresses. I also feel like I'm going to die right now. My chinese skills are ASS, and it makes me feel so damn stupid. I feel like everything in Chinese insults my intelligence. Screw this I'm going to sleep.
It's 3 in the morning now, and I spent over 4 hours doing Chinese homework with Iris and my mom. I have to finish copying some shit, but I don't feel like it right now. I don't think it's fair that I have Chinese school after having a long week of school. COME ON NOW dude.. I basically wake up 6/7 days before 8 o clock. WTF is that shit? I need sleep, but I'm too stubborn when I'm upset to put sleep as the priority. In the end, my stupidity is of course my own fault, therefore I should be punished for it.
Well maybe it's just because I'm already bummed about school, but I get these nostalgic moments that get me down even more. As I look through the window of the 18 bus passing the beach, I get reminded of the day I went to Sutro Heights with Gary. It was just so damn nice to be there, and be free from all this stress I have right now. And on top of that, I only get to see Gary a few times during the school year. What a piece of shit! Then a motorcycle passes by and I get reminded of Robin, then of work, and then of the kids and everyone. I never thought I would miss dealing with those whiney ass kids, but I would prefer it over going to school with the schedule I have now anyway.
Another thing that pisses me off, which I never noticed in the past, is that Eliza and I never have time for each other during the school year. She's got something going on, or else I'm too pissed off to want to go out in case I accidently make it seem like she pissed me off. Besides that anger/bitter factor, I'm so exhausted by the end of the day that I can't do anything except hw then sleep as soon as I can. I hate that my parents tell me I don't need friends, and I should just sleep. I did that before, it didn't work out for me. I'll sleep if I'm tired, but don't tell me I don't need friends or that I won't need friends in the future. If I don't have friends, how the fuck am I going to get married and all that kind of crap that my parents expect? Why would they say stupid shit like that to me when they know I have a short temper during the school year. I know it's disrespectful, but, stop fucking asking me a question and then not listen to the answer and asking me more than three times total. Even if I speak in Chinese, they don't understand what I'm saying. It's either that, or they don't want to hear what I have to say. Thanks parents. Made me feel guilty for being angry at you guys.
I'm pretty disappointed that Kelley and I won't have that much time to CHILLAX this semester.. I feel like I'll become even more anti-social as the year progresses. I also feel like I'm going to die right now. My chinese skills are ASS, and it makes me feel so damn stupid. I feel like everything in Chinese insults my intelligence. Screw this I'm going to sleep.
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Aww my parents are like that. When they ask me questions or say something hella annoying. I answer what they've asked and they get super duper angry. >_> ARGH. Oooo that day made it extra nice cause it was spent with super duper hot GARY ^_^
hey buddyz! How be your dayz? By reading your blog, i see that u got somez problemoz and if u want to talk about themz i'm here to talk toz! Im guessing u know who thiz bez alreadyz
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Bahh.. I clicked on the trash can icon by accident. -____- What I said was: My Advanced Algebra class has like 38 people in it. Pinocci is trying to get a couple of us to switch to a morning class, and I think its your class. Is ending at 15 considered a legal schedule?
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