I just didn't see it coming

I woke up many times at night, because I was planning to turn off my computer after I finished downloading crap off of MK, so I think my body was accustomed to waking up after sleeping for four hours. I come online, and I get an IM from an unexpected person. I thought I was still dreaming, so I rubbed my eyes to make sure I wasn't imagining things. It really WAS him. It was the worse conversation I've ever had with this person, and I think he already signed off. There wasn't one word about how I was doing, or how he was doing. I think that's the end of our friendship. It's really bittersweet actually. If our friendship grows, I get sucked in all over again, because, simply put, I'm addicted. hah. If things remain like they do now, us not talking, I'll just continue to feel -___- about it, but at least I won't be sucked in. It's hard to see which is the sweet part, because this is all kind of depressing to me, just trust me that there is something good that comes out of this.

I should have saw this coming though. I mean come on.. I had way too much fun in the last three days to not see something bad happening to me on the last day. How can I forget that the world hates me, and only wants me torture me? It is the beginning of a horrible day. great.