Why doesn't anything ever last forever? Why do good things have shorter life spans than terrible epidemics? It's pretty unfair that you need to experience a lot more shit in order to perceive how good other things are. It confuses me how we can study perception if what we perceive is different from what someone else perceives. How can you use the concept to study itself?!
I really hate sitting next someone, and feeling that they're really far away, as if they are in another world. I go through this isolation thing every school year, but this year has been by far the worse out of all the years. Everyone's priorities are different, and I think that a really strong bond between people are their priorities. Once people no longer share the same goals, it's hard to connect with them and empathize with their situations. Interests have definitely changed, which is another driving force that holds people together. If you don't share the same interests, whether intellectual or matierialistic, it's hard to find something to talk about. Sure, you can talk about each other, but the other person won't have their own replies, right? They'll nod and you'll be able to feel that they don't care. It'll be a one sided conversation.
When it comes down to it, I'm just talking about how nothing lasts forever. No matter how solid something is, it can always break or fade away. I truly believe that now. I feel that I was foolish in the past to believe that some things were exceptions to that rule. Everything takes work to keep together. If there's a crack in the wall, you can preserve it by plastering it. But if you just neglect it, believing that it's sturdy enough to remain that way forever, an earthquake might come and be severe enough to knock the wall over. Relationships are the same way. They all need work. I need to remind myself every day because I'm the one that started neglecting people. It's essentially my fault. I don't know if my pride will allow myself to go crawling back to certain people. If I don't do it, I might lose everything that I've built up in the past 12 or so years.
I really hate sitting next someone, and feeling that they're really far away, as if they are in another world. I go through this isolation thing every school year, but this year has been by far the worse out of all the years. Everyone's priorities are different, and I think that a really strong bond between people are their priorities. Once people no longer share the same goals, it's hard to connect with them and empathize with their situations. Interests have definitely changed, which is another driving force that holds people together. If you don't share the same interests, whether intellectual or matierialistic, it's hard to find something to talk about. Sure, you can talk about each other, but the other person won't have their own replies, right? They'll nod and you'll be able to feel that they don't care. It'll be a one sided conversation.
When it comes down to it, I'm just talking about how nothing lasts forever. No matter how solid something is, it can always break or fade away. I truly believe that now. I feel that I was foolish in the past to believe that some things were exceptions to that rule. Everything takes work to keep together. If there's a crack in the wall, you can preserve it by plastering it. But if you just neglect it, believing that it's sturdy enough to remain that way forever, an earthquake might come and be severe enough to knock the wall over. Relationships are the same way. They all need work. I need to remind myself every day because I'm the one that started neglecting people. It's essentially my fault. I don't know if my pride will allow myself to go crawling back to certain people. If I don't do it, I might lose everything that I've built up in the past 12 or so years.
2 Comments:
I love that you wrote all that, especially the first paragraph. I might quote it.
I remember writing about my friend Sandy, like her ex never really understood her, so it was like a one sided conversation with him. What she really wanted was a response, which she got from this new guy who knew exactly what she was going through.
But yeah, sometimes there are other factors other than common interest which keeps people together. But I guess you're right. I look for someone who thinks the way I do and has similiar interests, probably not the exact same, otherwise we're on a competing level. But anyway, I look for someone who is ambitious like I am, it just drives you more. But I won't go into that.
I know exactly what you mean by relationships needing effort. Like, when Hardy and I weren't talking for like three weeks, I let it happen, and I really wish I had put more effort in perserving our relationship.
But yeah. Man I wish I could give "Godly" advice to you, I'm just not that good. (Literally my friend read your comment and called you Godly)
Don't force things to stay the way they are, nobody will end up happy that way. Just let go.
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