I remember what I wanted to post about.

Anger.

I've always had a bad temper, but it has been harder and harder for me to control my temper this year. I don't know how others perceive it, but it makes me feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. I don't know if my anger is always visible, but I definitely feel it inside of me. I've been angry this whole week. It's a freaking unsettling feeling. I feel like something else is in control of my body because I can never think straight anymore.

My anger has reached the point where its bothering my emotional stability. That's probably the most unsettling part.

I'm really worried that being pissed off this much of the time is unhealthy. I can't fairly evaluate my own emotions, but I feel like I'm upset most of the time these days. I am happy though. I have fun. I laugh. But I feel like as soon as I'm alone again, anger just takes over my body. I'm so easily set off it's not even funny.

That's when I come to the conclusion that the people who do piss me off don't know me well enough to even know that they're pissing me off. That literally amounts to every single person I know. I actually think my closer friends piss me off more because I expect.. uh better from them? Hah. Probably not the best way to describe it, but I think I'll understand what I mean if I reread this entry in the future.

I'm so tired of being angry. The fact that I get pissed so easily also makes me angry. It's a never ending cycle. I just want to go crawl into a hole. I don't want to see anyone.