"You're not fat" does not mean you are healthy
I was watching vh1's Rock Hard Bodies today, and of course I was just kicked in the crotch by it. I looked at myself in the mirror and realized how fat I'd gotten since 6th grade in middle school. I stayed pretty lean during middle school and especially in 8th grade when I didn't like to eat. Then BAM, happiness kicked in, and my weight sky rocketted. Okay, maybe I only gained about 5 pounds in a year, but it's so freaking visible. I have that belly now, and my pants are a little tighter.. It's not a big deal or anything, but it makes me feel so insecure. How could I not notice that I was putting on weight?! My blame is Lowell, because I have irregular meals, and I fall asleep alot after I eat because I'm hella tired. In addition to eating then sleeping, I've also picked up the habit of snacking. I really have to admit that I rarely had a real meal this entire year. Time is money, or actually in my case, time is grades. I really hope I can redeem myself this summer, or else I'll be going to school like a big tub of lard.
Staying home is really ARGH to me these days. I hate being at home, and all I want to do is just not be in the house. I don't even care what I do. I just hate being home. I feel like I'm trapped when my parent's tell me they need me to stay home for various reasons. TRAPPED. I need freaking help. This summer will be great, but when I go back to school, I'm going to be so bitter.. I guess I can't have too much fun this summer eh?
Oh yeah.. I wanted to talk about all those diets out there. Atkin's diet? OMG how is eating all that meat supposed to help you lose weight? Okay, it might actually work, but you're not considering the fact that eating that much meat will bring harm to you in the long run. Beef, and those red meat products are baddddd news. Plus, you'd be constipated all the time. pfft. And man, I know I'm not fat, but does that mean I'm actually healthy? I feel so damn out of shape. I want to work out, but I always end up uh, doing nothing. I need someone to motivate me yo
Staying home is really ARGH to me these days. I hate being at home, and all I want to do is just not be in the house. I don't even care what I do. I just hate being home. I feel like I'm trapped when my parent's tell me they need me to stay home for various reasons. TRAPPED. I need freaking help. This summer will be great, but when I go back to school, I'm going to be so bitter.. I guess I can't have too much fun this summer eh?
Oh yeah.. I wanted to talk about all those diets out there. Atkin's diet? OMG how is eating all that meat supposed to help you lose weight? Okay, it might actually work, but you're not considering the fact that eating that much meat will bring harm to you in the long run. Beef, and those red meat products are baddddd news. Plus, you'd be constipated all the time. pfft. And man, I know I'm not fat, but does that mean I'm actually healthy? I feel so damn out of shape. I want to work out, but I always end up uh, doing nothing. I need someone to motivate me yo
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