This feeling is getting old

A lot of the time, I wish I could cry, because I think that might make me feel better. That makes me sound so freaking crazy, but thats exactly what I want to do now. I need to alleviate some of this crap ass feeling from me right now. RIGHT NOW. Because it's having negative effects on me. I can't concentrate on anything. And I find myself digging up old Backstreet Boys songs to listen to. I haven't listened to them in a while. Brian is truly talented. I wish he'd come out with a solo album.

Someone, get me the hell out of this slump. I need to live again. I need find out who's going to be here with me for the rest of my life, and who's just going to walk out on me when there's a struggle. Where do you stand in my life?