I was browsing this person's xanga, and damn she's really good at putting raw emotions into words. Check it out Her writing isn't anything special, but the way she so accurately portrays some of my rather-hard-to-express emotions really shocked me. Somehow, she made me feel the need to blog..

I read one of her older entries where she talked about wanting someone to talk to, and that triggered something in me. I'm not sure what I'm trying to describe here, but I really frucking miss norm. I miss the security of seeing the same one person every single day. I sat next to him on almost every bus ride towards the end of the trip. Simple things like that make me really miss that bastard. I liked the fact that we basically took care of each other too. har har, he was practically my bitch :) I remember one time.. I was too lazy to put on sun block or bug spray, so he helped me put on sunscreen on my arms.

I even miss when he and Edward would make fun of me about Derek. There was this one night when we were all just laying around and they kept asking me why I liked Derek. In actuality, I don't think I had more than crush-like feelings for Derek during the beginning of the trip.. but they were so convinced that I liked Derek for some reason. But yeah. They made me think of reasons why I would like Derek since they both thought that Derek was a dick. I was really annoyed since it's impossible to explain why you like someone.. so I mention that Derek is nice and he even gave me a little stuffed seal keychain! That was a stupid move on my part because they reminded me that I didn't even meet Derek when he bought the keychain, so in their eyes, I liked a guy because he gave me something that he bought for someone else. HAHAHA. Okay, I can see why none of you guys are laughing.. because you just had to be there.. but it was HILARIOUS. *sigh*

I talked to Edward today though. I still talk to him a lot.. but Norm you bastard, where the fuck is my phone call?! DIE DIE DIE