It's all overwelming me

I can't handle this school year. I stayed home to sleep and apparently, I slept too much for my own good. I used up too much of my precious time! I have so much more work to do, and it's already the next day. I have to study for that test I missed today, which I know I will do especially poorly on, as well as all the routine homework I have. I want to make my responsibilities GO AWAY. Or at least let me skip school without having it in the back of my mind.

I haven't talked to my non school friends in DAYS. Actually, I don't talk to my friends at school much anymore either. My breaks are dedicated to finishing homework or else doing some crap for clubs.

I'm sick and tired of Chinese Club, to be honest. I know I probably shouldn't openly bitch about it, but I can't even hold it in anymore. I have a lot of fun with the officers, but the responsibility and the club itself doesn't seem worth it anymore. All of this for some club credit? It would be different if the people in the club appreciated our efforts, but I know they won't.

In times like these, I really really miss China. Summer was good to me this year, but does it mean that Fall should punish me so harshly?!

On Saturday, I'm going to take a practice SAT for the first time in almost two months! WOW WOW WOW. I hope I score at least 1850. I'm excited to go back to SAT class in the winter.

I miss talking to Edward! I haven't had the time to call him this week. blah!

"Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine"