I either sell myself short of my capabilities or everyone else in the world is too optimistic about their abilities. Everyone around me is getting a job, but I always let opportunity pass me by. "I can't handle it during the school year" I say to everyone, but is that really true? Or is it I don't want to bother? Admittedly, I am taking four AP classes, but one of them is Chinese. Yeah actually I can't handle it. I'm being realistic. But that doesn't stop me from being jealous of my friends who can actually manage their time.

This summer is going to boring. Just a few days without homework has turned me into a mindless zombie. I really should stay productive this summer, but where's the motivation? My brain tells me that I deserve the chance to rot, but that's never the smart thing to do is it?

whatever. I need to stop going online because I end the day all tired and miserable in front of the computer.