Today, I decided to go downtown with Lina and Victor just for the hell of it. I needed a break before I met up with my cousins so I decided to check out the shoes at Macy's. It's awkward to shop with people you're not comfortable with because it feels as though I'm imposing on their little outing even if they insisted I go.
I was feeling a bit reclusive after a bit, so I decided to visit Eliza. :( I miss her. Plus the free coffee made me happy, too. Deeleeo coincidentally visited and we chatted for a bit. I got to try the new fruit fraps. They're good. :) The tangerine frap is good, try it!
After a little while, I decide to go meet up with my cousin at Pier 39. It turns out that my cousin Tommy dumped them there and went to go pick up a friend. They say they would have been able to go back home just fine, but I don't believe it. Well, in all honesty, I like to feel needed anyway... haha.
Had dinner at my Tommy's house. Talked for a while, and then went back to Ninh's house to play Mario Kart.
Ninh came into the living room and asked us all to think of a memory to help him to write grandpa's ulogy (spelling?) Most of my cousins didn't have any memory to add. I resented that a little, but more than anything, I felt bad for them because they must feel like crap for not knowing much about their own grandpa.
I really like talking to my cousins, but for some reason, I feel really shitty at the end of the day. Not only is the day tiring, but it's also how much time I spend with them. Admittedly, I'm not hanging out with them 24/7 because I've learned my lessons from the past, but I'm still feeling as though I resent them in some way. I really love talking to them, but I always get this way at the end of the night. It bothers me because all I do is try even harder to make conversation.
I feel sort of constantly unhappy with myself. I'm usually much less sluggish in the summer so I don't understand where this crap is coming from.
I'm also pissed at my dad for giving so much money to my cousins for Lai See when my other uncles don't give us anything at all. I'm a really bitter person.
Okay I'm done being a bitch for the night.
I was feeling a bit reclusive after a bit, so I decided to visit Eliza. :( I miss her. Plus the free coffee made me happy, too. Deeleeo coincidentally visited and we chatted for a bit. I got to try the new fruit fraps. They're good. :) The tangerine frap is good, try it!
After a little while, I decide to go meet up with my cousin at Pier 39. It turns out that my cousin Tommy dumped them there and went to go pick up a friend. They say they would have been able to go back home just fine, but I don't believe it. Well, in all honesty, I like to feel needed anyway... haha.
Had dinner at my Tommy's house. Talked for a while, and then went back to Ninh's house to play Mario Kart.
Ninh came into the living room and asked us all to think of a memory to help him to write grandpa's ulogy (spelling?) Most of my cousins didn't have any memory to add. I resented that a little, but more than anything, I felt bad for them because they must feel like crap for not knowing much about their own grandpa.
I really like talking to my cousins, but for some reason, I feel really shitty at the end of the day. Not only is the day tiring, but it's also how much time I spend with them. Admittedly, I'm not hanging out with them 24/7 because I've learned my lessons from the past, but I'm still feeling as though I resent them in some way. I really love talking to them, but I always get this way at the end of the night. It bothers me because all I do is try even harder to make conversation.
I feel sort of constantly unhappy with myself. I'm usually much less sluggish in the summer so I don't understand where this crap is coming from.
I'm also pissed at my dad for giving so much money to my cousins for Lai See when my other uncles don't give us anything at all. I'm a really bitter person.
Okay I'm done being a bitch for the night.
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