I think I have too much alcohol in my system over the last two days. Incredibly dehydrated right now and threw up wayy too many times. Somehow through the vomiting I reached a semi-state of clarity about life.

In a way, I feel like I reasserted by independence because I took care of myself. If I was a glass half empty person, I would focus on the fact that I am indeed alone and left with no one to call but myself to follow through.

I think I can finally let go of G after tonight. Somehow I think I can do it. My life as of late has been really pathetic and awesome at the same time. On a professional level I am making great strides. Unfortunately I realized that I can't have it all. I know people say that you can have it all, but you can't. There's not enough capacity in a person for that to happen and you just have to accept it.

Actually, I'm pretty sure I'm human so I will keep trying to talk to him and make myself miserable. Such is life. I need to find someone new....